Wednesday, April 19, 2006

you don't have to move, you don't have to speak

"be human, be vulnrable, be real, be hurt, be rational, be flexible, learn, grow, move on. be human once again."

-stephen christian

it's...........hard.

i see him now with someone else, and as much as i want to move on....i feel like i can't move from this spot, i feel like my feet are glued to the ground where i stand.

he says the same things to her that he said to me.

all of the exact same things.

i thought i was special.
i thought the things he said were special.
i thought we were special.

and now i see.
now......i see.


my (our) bracelet fell off the other day.
it broke.
i made us both one.
he took his off long ago.
i kept mine on....just to keep the hope alive.
i hoped.
it broke.
i want to take that as some sort of sign, some sort of green light....something to give me a reason to get over him.
i am over him.
what i'm not over.....what i'm not over is us.

gah.

No comments: